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Conservation of Jing: Please help.From: Asthmatic
Subject: General
Date/Time 2007-07-20 03:00:53
Remote IP: 220.2.46.155
MessageThank you all for your help and advice.
Jernej, where would I go about finding said workshop or said proposed sequence of study? Thanks.
"You want to be a better partner in bed?
Do you feel exhausted after sex?
Is it the idea of spiritual enlightenment?"
All three of these are reasons I want to improve my control over my sexual energy. However, I have a long list of reasons why I want to do this.
It has nothing to do with the fact that I am embaressed to share why, but I don't think anybody would believe me if I told them. I will go ahead and write why I want to improve my control over sexual energy, but I usually keep it to myself because most people think I am strange, looney, crazy, or a liar when I tell them.
2 or 3 years ago, after I started practicing Tai Chi, I began feeling what felt like electric current, warm water, or pleasent buzzing flowing through my body. I have no idea what this is, but I am labeling it "Chi", because I don't know how else to label it or how to describe it to other people.
At the same time I became aware of chi, I began feeling tingling all over my body, that felt like bugs crawling through my skin. It was a very itchy, annoying, , discomforting, and distasteful feeling and I wanted it to go away. I quickly realized a corrilation between ejaculation/sex and this distasteful feeling intensifying. I experimented with Celibacy for a long time, but in the end, I didn't feel that it was healthy... So I began practicing sex without ejaculation. Though I do not ejactulate when having sex, I still lose chi and the negative feeling still intensifies, though not nearly as much as when I ejaculate.
If I don't have sex, I feel the feeling of "Chi" getting stronger and stronger every day. It feels quite wonderful and I would love to develop my chi more. When I have sex, the feeling of chi diminishes and the negative sensations grow stronger.
I believe it has to do with the "chi" or energy in my body transforming into bodily fluids when I have sex. I would like to learn how to keep all my energy and not lose any so I can develop my chi.
I am spiritually curious about chi and have felt some amazing things at times when I had refrained from sex for a long time. I would like to venture in this territory and see how deep the rabbit hole goes. I believe it could lead me to a path of spiritual enlightenment. However, I am unable to do this because I am unable to figure out how to have sex without losing energy. I have been very interested in learning how to do this, but I have no teacher, no ideas or ways of finding a teacher, no idea how to practice or improve, and no idea how to achieve my goals. I am a student with a desire to learn, but with no idea how to go about doing it.
Please help me. Thank you.
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